Taken from: Delamar’s blog

The truth is, some days, maybe because things have not worked out…maybe because it is taking so long…I doubt if I even have a “happy ever after” of my own..

The truth is, no matter how strong you know you can be, you just want someone to be on your side…maybe not to fight for you but just to be there to hold your hand when you’re done fighting for yourself…

The truth is, sometimes I get so scared at the life ahead of me because it is so uncertain I pray to high heavens to open up the earth and swallow me…

The truth is, sometimes this single girl feels like an outsider looking in when I see how happy my friends are with the one they love…

The truth is I sometimes wonder if I have been wrong all along believing and hoping that my turn will come…

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If there is anything I am truly feeling, Delamar expressed it for me. Yes, you may see me always smiling, cheerful and a jester.

But there are times that when I am worried with things, I just lie down on my bed, hoping there’s someone who’d wrap his arm around me and tell me not to worry about things cus he’s there for me..no matter what.

There are times that I would rather stay home than go out with friends because most of them are couples. I sometimes feel that I don’t belong because I’m always the nth wheel. :| don’t get me wrong, I am happy for my friends…and I am not bitter…but a girl can sometimes dream, right?

And just like what Del said, I sometimes think that maybe a happy ever after with someone is not for me. That even if I wait and wait and wait, it will just not come.

Being single is awesome..but sometimes..

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more in the wish list..

crumpler bag strap

The OC Season 3 DVD

The OC Season 4 DVD

Nine West wallet

iPhone cable wire (don’t ask why :p)

Lanz (please visit his blog for more wonderful shots and if you want need a photographer who is not expensive *wink*) attended my sister’s wedding cus i know he wanted to take pictures. he brought his gear but didn’t get the chance to get some nice shots of the couple cus they had to run to my bro-in-law’s place. Lanz had to settle with little moi. i’m sure he was glad i was there to pose for him. hahahaha…

more vanity shots after the cut. ;)

this post is inspired by Kai and Lanz’s posts because like them, i am also vain! :p hahaha..

a trip to Manila isn’t complete without a photoshoot. my friend Lanz promised me that i’ll be his model when i get home. a man of his words, he did made me a model. hahaha! you will find more of my favorite shots during our meet-up at MoA after the cut. (beware, this post is picture heavy. look at your own risk.)

“Lost” shot (daw..sorry, i can’t relate e)

i just realized that in 6 days, i’ll be walking down the aisle, not as a bride but as an MOH to my younger sister. MOH being MAID of Honor and not MATRON of Honor. (partida a..in a year, lahat na nagampanan ko..bridesmaid, secondary sponsor at now, MOH na ako)

yes, my younger sister is getting married ahead of me. i actually expected this to happen noon pa.

i am happy for my sister and excited for myself cus i am going home to Manila again for this celebration. going home means i’ll be seeing not only my immediate family but my friends as well.

but it just dawned on me..i’m not seeing ONLY the people i mentioned above. i’m seeing other relatives too. lolos, lolas, aunts, uncles, cousins, nieces, nephews, family friends, neighbors.. (exagg na ata).

anyhoo, i can see it already. being my parents’ eldest child, these people expect me to get married first. i know questions will be thrown at me next week. sorry naman. not all things are done in order po. i am happy with my life, thanks very much. truth is, i’ve never been happier in my life. single life has given me a lot of time to discover myself, do the things i like to do, meet new friends and just enjoy being on my own.

yes, i am at the prime of my life! late bloomer ako, oo! i know i’m old na. but age is just a number. who cares about that? (but still, i’m not saying how old i am)

so next week, when people ask me when i’m getting married, my answer will be just a smile and maybe tell them not to take away the attention from the couple! haha.. (affected much!? :p)

here’s my wish list..(might add some more in the coming days)

Wireless Mighty Mouse (mouse for my macbook :D)

The Bridge Across Forever (book by Richard Bach)

The Lovely Bones (book by Alice Sebold)

Nikon AF Nikkor 50mm f/1.8D lens (para mura lang)

Nikon SB-600 Speedlight or any cheap TTL speedlight for Nikon

Nikon ML-L3 Wireless Remote Control (Infrared)

Walt Disney talking about Cinderella..

She believed in dreams, alright, but she also believed in doing something about them. When Prince Charming didn’t come along, she went over to the palace and got him.

Workstation, originally uploaded by arland.

This is how our workstation in Safeway looks like. I super love the L-shaped desk cus it gives us more than enough space for all our kalats and abubots.

This particular desk belongs to Lanz. Lanz converted his workstation into a mini-gallery. He’s always been proud to show off his work to people and most of the time, he gets the praises he rightfully deserves.

He was making kulit that I check the recent pic of his desk so I did and whaddaya know..the little gift I gave him when I was about to leave Safeway is still in his desk wall. This made me gush a lot of awwwwww’s.

Alabshu Lanz. Can’t wait for out next photo op! :D

EJ told me about this over dinner earlier. and i must agree, it is so touching no wonder he “almost” cried when he saw it.

i hope you guys love it as much as i do..